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[maskitheclown]

I have ideas, i have time and space but I'm nit writing anything. It's ridiculous.

Some ideas are incomplete though, i get that. Like the one where sophia and amy adopt the three girls... Not easy to untangle.

But i want some martin/simon fluff which really shouldn't be hard, and some john/steve porn, which is military porn, my favorite kind, so why not? And there's the bob/brendon/ace!spencer AU I started writing and hank/alex that is almost finished and all i need to do is orrrganizzzee. But no.

Also no on studying korean, reading this book i like and buying the cd i want. My lazines is now clinical i think. Tis can't be normal?

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[mrsquizzical.livejournal.com]

bob/brendon/spencer? what is an ace!spencer? tell me more!

[maskitheclown.livejournal.com]

Well, there are two, kind of. One is the bob the pet keeper in Black Parade AU that i wrote the first chapter of, and that was supposed to be B/B/S.
But there's another one that I'm thinking about that starts like a regular threesome fic where two people are together (bob and brendon) and then they ask spencer to join them (like many patrick/pete/ashlee threesomes) but in this one, spencer wouldn't really be into sex. And so it would get weird. And i'm thinking, does he do it anyway, because he thinks it's the only way to have anything at all with them, does he bail, does he talk it out (i'd say no, considering the divorce), what happens!? Ace spencer would be asexual spencer.

I'm also still trying to do the kink meme and I was planning a food kink thing with the three of them, but I realized that Spencer's recent weight loss was a consequence of something serious and now I feel awkward writing it.

[mrsquizzical.livejournal.com]

i really love that second idea! sorry for my ignorance about the term ace. i really love the thought of this. i was talking to someone... stele3 i think? about that and how there are so many ways to love and how i would love a really layered story that examines that. in the context of 3some it would (potentially) be particularly wonderful.

[maskitheclown.livejournal.com]

*nodnodnod* recently I've heard about aromantic people being in happy relationships and I'm trying to figure that out now, just, how do you know where the line is, and why isn't it romantic love if it's directed at this one person etc.
It's ok about the ace thing, I've seen people complan that it's a slur actually but I like it and I'm taking it so I figure everyone can use it on my Lj. Just I guess be careful otherwise.

I tried writing some of it but I always fall into martyrdom or condescending conversations. It's hard to find a balance. Also, I keep giving Spencer my pet peeves about sex when there are millions of ways a person can dislike or not be into sex.
But I figure if I write long enough, I'm gonna get all of that out of my system and then I'll be able to write an ok story.

Yeah, I could try to do a food knk without the weightloss bit... Since I HATE food coming into contact with non-finger skin it will have to be feeding of some sort. Maybe I'll just go into parts of BDSM I've never explored before. Brendon does so love being on his knees :)

[mrsquizzical.livejournal.com]

i don't think there is really a writer who doesn't put a few of their own 'things' into characters. or at least borrow things from people they know or know of. it doesn't have to mean it's completely self-inserting.

also i think if you just write it out, don't get road-blocked now with 'oh no i did that in a condescending way'. just get the story out in whatever form, and then you can go back and work on those bits. it's a way of at least getting a first draft finished. :D \o/

thanks for the heads up about the terminiology. i will stay silent on what i don't understand and keep trying to learn. ;)

[mrsquizzical.livejournal.com]

i'm not sure the weightloss thing was linked with other sad events, from all reports in that zack mentioned it in a more positive light re fitness etc. but the topic is one that is tied to so many different shaky areas that it would be really difficult to write about weight loss without tipping into that territory? food kink itself could still be done safely, though? :/